The aggressive chemo did nothing but make Jim sicker. He was given 10 units of blood and then because of the chemo he had to have dialysis. We both knew the end was near but we didn’t like to talk about it. Jim must have told me a dozen or more times how very much he appreciated my taking care of him.
I would always reply by asking him if our roles were reversed would he take care of me. Of course, was always his answer, It was hard but I wouldn’t have had it any other way. Jim was my life companion and the thought of losing him was terrifying for me.
We spent the next three weeks in and out of the hospital and finally the last visit to see his oncologist.
I am quoting an excerpt from my WLS blog dated 21 November 2006:
“This will be my last post for awhile as I have many things to get done. The oncologist told Jim today that he could do nothing more for him. We have been referred to a specialist in Chicago at Rush Hospital that deals in clinical trial type cancer meds. This appt is Nov 30th. This is our last hope. The doctor told us today that as it stands now there is about 2 months left to us. Very hard news for us to take during the holiday season. I feel very grateful to have had Jim for 51 years (this Dec 2nd). I am asking if each of you will remember Jim in your prayers and ask God to help us to be strong.” Tomorrow our trip to Rush Hospital. beth